Saturday, August 05, 2000

honorable mention to my previous list of hottest guys on the planet:

Tom Hanks: not traditionally "hot" but god does he make me *shiver*...i think a sense of humor ina man is extremely sexy n Tom is just over the top in that dept.
8/5/2000 11:44:16 PM | immortalize me | 21 comments

gotten 3 poll responses so far...n they r all really great so thx guys for answering...the rest of u plz answer this cuz if yer answers r nething like the ones ive already gotten, it will give everybody a real feel for the kind of person u r....but time is growing short so plz reply soon
thx =)
8/5/2000 11:38:33 PM | immortalize me | 21 comments

Friday, August 04, 2000

yaaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!
tonya's back
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
8/4/2000 10:48:18 PM | immortalize me | 21 comments

vinyl seats on summer days with no pants are the devil
8/4/2000 08:48:32 PM | immortalize me | 21 comments

fuck me runnin its hot in front of this puter..ima take a shower i think...
yuh..now that i think bout it, a shower is a good idea....*cold water=heaven*
8/4/2000 08:47:33 PM | immortalize me | 21 comments

i hate headaches..like..alot..specially when i yawn..ow
8/4/2000 08:46:43 PM | immortalize me | 21 comments

theres something that i wanna write about...but im not sher..i guess im a lil afraid cuz ppl that know me read this...n its something thats intensely personal 2 me n would be a snap 2 write if this was a completely annonomous(god i cant spell) thing n nobody that read it knew me...but the thing that im thinkin bout writing about will more than likely change the way that most, maybe even all of u, view me as a person...ill think about it
8/4/2000 08:34:34 PM | immortalize me | 21 comments

Thursday, August 03, 2000

1) Wildfire by Micheal Murphy(i think thats who does it) "she ran callin' Wildfire..." is one of the lines of the chorus if yer not familiar with it..not only has this got to be my favorite song of all time (yes, counting ne and all def leppard songs), but its an important song to me because its such a beautiful song, n everytime i hear it i cry...its almost spellbinding the way that i can just freeze n listen to the whole thing n do nothing else while its on.
2) I Write The Songs by Barry Manilow cheesy, yes. The reason this song is important to me is because of my father. now ...its no secret that i hate my father, for various reasons that i wont go into...but this song was a major part of my childhood...it represented a connection to my father that i didnt have newhere else in my life...i remember one time we were just driving up to the house n just as he was about to turn off the car, it came on...we sat in the car in front of the house n listened to it...i was maybe 4 or 5 at the most...interesting post script to this one...i now hate this song, n ne time it comes on, i hafta change the station or find a gun n shoot the ppl in my apt complex.
3)How Do I Live Trisha Yearwood version this is the first song that i ever sang to gary (we were on the phone n i was EXTREMELY nervous) the words sum up how i feel about him n what he means to me n when i hear it im filled with all the love i have for him n reminds me just how important a part of my life he has become.

ok, so this is what im lookin for...so break out yer cd's, your '80's collections, your mp3's n find the (3) most important songs to you n lemme know what those are.....=)
8/3/2000 11:31:54 PM | immortalize me | 21 comments

ok...psy's first poll question:

since everyone (just about) has put a long reference to the importance of music in their lives, what are the three most important songs in your life? and why? doesnt hafta jus be the three most important songs of late, but of your WHOLE life...from your earliest memory up until now, if necessary. email me loaded44@hotmail.com (im retarded n cant link that so jus do it the manually hard way) with your answers by sunday, august 6th n ill post all the responses at once. n since most of you hit my blog on a daily basis, u should be able 2 get em in by then...u can email later than that but i would like to post them all at one time...next post will be my answer to this ?...
8/3/2000 11:19:08 PM | immortalize me | 21 comments

m'k...the last 2 nites ina row i have gone n passed out on the couch.....ugh..i hate working mornings

im sitting here blankly staring at the screen n wondering what 2 type...n also thinking...how do i present what ima type?...i mean...i could be my usual bubbly effervescent self or i could jus type it the way it feels in my head...
do u ever look at something n jus feel lost?...n no im not talking bout html code...i wuz readin everybodys blogs jus now n i got the distinct impression that i felt lost...like...not lost in the world, or lost in my thoughts..jus lost like..in my head...like for one brief moment the inside of my head got like REALLY big (like the tele booth in the dr who series that wuz huge inside n ity-bity outside)
n in all that room there was nothing there..now im not tryin 2 be funny, like o well of course theres nothing there, cuz ima retard...or an airhead or whatever...on the contrary im being totally serious...it felt very empty..n with the emptiness came a sort of lost feeling..n the same empty feeling u have when youve lost someone r something very important 2 u...i wonder what that means...i jus had a dream about my cousin...that i went 2 visit her n she had broke up with her husband but i din know bout it, but i guessed it cuz the huge rock of a ring wasnt on her finger...i dunno what that has 2 do with nething, jus kina reinforces the "lost" thing...
oddly enuff tho...the usual emotion that comes with this lost feeling i get every once in a while is sadness...but thats not here now..im not sad..jus empty...n lost...but not sad about it..its almost like that detached "out-of-body" thingie dead brought back 2 life ppl talk about...its like im watching someone else being lost...since everybody is doin polls of late, ima do one 2..i already know what the question is gonna be about i jus hafta think of a good way 2 word it...its a really good one 2 n ima answer it first to give u a feeling of the type of answers im lookin for...n unlike some polls...where u jus kina give a stock, funny, unnimportant answer, i would really like ppl 2 think about it...put thought into your response n be serious about it...cuz i think its a good question, n its one that will give ppl an idea about what type of person u r etc...

that lost thing is still here n its making it hard for me 2 concentrate on jus "stream of conciousness" writing so ima stop...n post the poll

o n btw...(stealing from jess) public transportation is the devil
8/3/2000 11:11:44 PM | immortalize me | 21 comments

Wednesday, August 02, 2000

lmfao...i jus got up 2 turn on the tv..n realized i dun even know which channel is cbs
lolololol
8/2/2000 06:55:29 PM | immortalize me | 21 comments

i am about 2 delve(sp) deeper into the world of "sheepdome" (my own word, thank u very much)
in approximately 7 1/2 minutes, survivor comes on..n ima watch it....omgosh...
i feel like sucha....um..whats the word....

oh yeah, sheep
8/2/2000 06:54:51 PM | immortalize me | 21 comments

lol..2 funny...me n gary have this cookie sheet..n the only thing we use this cookie sheet for (one of them big rectangular ones) is for makin them frozen tony's etc. pizzas....lol..so right in the middle of this huge rectangular cookie sheet..is this circle of silver that looks the same as the day we bought it...and all over the rest of it is that black..caked on..burnt on...stuck on shit that no amount of scrubbing will/would/could ever get off...
i dunno why that struck me...but it did...
now im tickled

=)
8/2/2000 06:47:24 PM | immortalize me | 21 comments

the "My Stuff" over there in the corner is for the as yet not created part of muh blog...the REALLY kewl stuff..heh...like..an about me thingie...n maybe sum pix....n like...a archive, cuz i gotta git sum a dis shit offa muh page cuz its lookin a bit cluttered..when nite gits home ima ask him 2 help me cuz ima tard as we have already established...but newayz...like..um...thx fer hittin muh blog...r sumthin
8/2/2000 06:32:44 PM | immortalize me | 21 comments

holy crap..i jus wanna take a minute 2 say...like..wow, man...over 10 ppl have hit muh blog in the last 10 r so hours...dayum...heh..i din know u cared =)
8/2/2000 06:30:42 PM | immortalize me | 21 comments

lalalalalalalalala
8/2/2000 06:27:48 PM | immortalize me | 21 comments

o...one more thing..i did wanna link 2 this cuz its fuckin kewl as hell..heh..n i LOVE angry kid...so check it out
8/2/2000 07:30:02 AM | immortalize me | 21 comments

omfg i hate...HATE..im using the word hate here...getting up in the mornin...nething even close 2 a single digit time n im mental...my right eye feels like its swollen n about 2 pop outta muh head, my throat feels like its been turned inside out n stuck on my windpipe upside down...n muh stomach feels like sumbody hada brick r sumfin sittin on it until bout 5 seconds b4 i woke up....i cant stop coughin n sneezin...n my hands are shaking almost 2 the point of makin it impossible 2 type this...ive backspaced more in the last 30 seconds than i have in the last 30 days...

i guess what im tryin 2 say is...im not really a morning person....ew
8/2/2000 07:28:24 AM | immortalize me | 21 comments

Tuesday, August 01, 2000

OMGODDDDDDDD i did another new thing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! im sooooooooooo pathetic im gettin so cited over sumfin dat everybody can do
but i dun care cuz i din even ask gary fer help...he's in da bedroom waxin his ax...r...playin his gee-tar >=)
heh....omgosh i feel soooooooooooooooooo kewl right now!
8/1/2000 03:35:31 AM | immortalize me | 21 comments

OHHHHHHHHH YEAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHAHHHHHHHH BAYYYYYBBBBAAAAAAAYYYYYYY!!!! i put up a link!!!!!!
omgosh i cant believe it..n it works n everything!! yeah for me!! omgosh im soooooooo psyched!!!!!!
n it makes it even better cuz its heatha's page n she is da bomb 2...even tho she is a sheep..heh
8/1/2000 03:33:31 AM | immortalize me | 21 comments

*sniffle*

gosh...heh...dayum can them english boys write =)
8/1/2000 03:20:05 AM | immortalize me | 21 comments

well..gary's been buggin me 2 update muh blog, but in all honesty (shocking as it may be) i havnt really had nething 2 say...so i thought i would let sumbody named "Sav" speak for me....gosh i love this song...

I've been waiting, goin' crazy
I can't sleep when I know you're not around
I've been saving what you're cravin'
Look at my face I'm about to replace
Every hurt, every tear that you cry

Cause when you feel this strong and you can't go on
There's nothing wrong, just try to realize

You won't ever have to say goodbye
You won't ever have to say "I've wasted all my time"
If the dream you dream ain't what it seems
Just look into my eyes
You won't ever have to say goodbye

I'm just praying, you hear me saying
I'd be there if the sun refused to shine
As the night gets colder I will be your shoulder
I give you my heart until death us do part
Every day, every moment, forever

Cause when the love is strong the feeling's never gone
There's nothing wrong in trying to realize

You won't ever have to say goodbye
You won't ever have to say "I've wasted all my time"
If the dream you dream ain't what it seems
Just look into my eyes
You won't ever have to say goodbye

Cause when your feeling's strong and you can't go on
There's nothing wrong, just try to realize

You won't ever have to say goodbye
You won't ever have to say "i've wasted all my time"
If the dream you dream ain't what it seems
Just look into my eyes
You won't ever have to say goodbye

8/1/2000 03:17:46 AM | immortalize me | 21 comments