Thursday, October 12, 2000

do u ever have reality jus kina slap u in the face...i mean..u can be goin round in yer life, blind to all but whats maybe in a 2 foot bubble around u n all the sudden WHAM! reality walks up n punches u in the gut...

that happened 2 me a couple weeks ago...i was outside, smokin a cigarette, waitin for my ride 2 work and thinkin how much i hated this apt, wanted 2 move, wanted a dvd player, wanted this or that, etc...n i look over to the end of the parkin lot where the dumpsters are n theres a guy lookin in the dumpster...i kina go...eh?..n continue 2 watch him...then i notice the fact that his clothes r kina dirty, n ripped n stuff, n that if i was closer to him i could prolly smell him...well...he reaches in n starts rooting through the dumpster, and ina few seconds starts pullin out pop cans n puttin them into a bag by his feet...n i just sat there, kinda stunned watchin him...actually more like staring at him..i couldnt stop..i just watched him continue to dig thru other pplz garbage...things other ppl didnt need, but that he obviously did n i felt REALLY awful...a few years ago..back in '95, i wasnt 2 well off..i was livin in an apt that was gov't subsidised(sp?) and once or twice a month i would go down to the salvation army's food pantry n load up on food...then i would go 2 the grocery store once a month n pick up my cash grant n food stamps n buy food with that also...

n now im here, bitchin bout the fact that i don't have enough "stuff" in my house...watchin this poor man dig thru other pplz garbage tryin 2 find enough cans to buy food with (or maybe he was just tryin 2 git drug/beer money)

i think maybe from now on, ima have a paper bag thats just pop cans, n when i take out the garbage ill leave that by the side of the dumpster
10/12/2000 02:39:23 AM | immortalize me | 21 comments

readin' queeney's blog, i realized *cough* i hadn't added her.....heh..oops

the situation has been rectified =)
10/12/2000 02:30:23 AM | immortalize me | 21 comments

im glad somebody else said that bout that jackass show...at first i thought it was gonna be jus another tom green (ewwie..massive ewwie) but it wasnt..it was actually funny...REALLY funny...props 2 jess for agreein with me, even tho i havnt really stated nething..heh

*snoopy dance*
10/12/2000 02:02:39 AM | immortalize me | 21 comments

i hate waiting for ppl 2 git back 2 me...we been waitin 2 hear if we r gonna git this apt or not n its drivin me crazy!!!!!

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
10/12/2000 01:37:15 AM | immortalize me | 21 comments