Wednesday, February 27, 2002

ok, down to business....i got my wild cherry diet pepsi...i got my blackjack gum here...and i've got that feeling...mmm...yeah that familiar feeling...that something rank is goin' down out there...

pump up the volume ladies and gents..for those of you not familiar, rent it...for those of you that are, don't sue me, i put where it was from.

excellent flick...but the last time i watched it, something struck me, and kinda ticked me off..."anybody over the age of 20 really has no idea" or words to that effect...i don't feel clueless....i mean, yeah...for the most part im out of touch with the fashions and music of the day....but only because the music isnt music...at least it isnt NEW music...and i don't much feel like wearing my pants down around my knees and putting a hat on backwards...
it never bothered me before, because i always sort of agreed with it...nobody over 20 DID have any idea...at least in my thinking...but, hell i dunno...30 is looming large on the horizon and here i sit, getting the giggles because the barcode on a movie at work cut off just right so the word 'subtitle' was actually 'subtit'...i still think its funny to hear other people having sex when they don't know you can hear them
and there is still that instinct within me that damands that i run to the person nearest me when i've just been told a secret (although for the most part i override that instinct now)
part of me is glad that i havnt 'grown up'....but there's this other part of me...the part that says 'you're 30, you still live in a crappy apt with no prospects of relocation, and you've been stagnant at a job you hate for 3 years' that knows its time to grow up....if for no other reason than the only way i am going to get what i want out of life is with just a dash of ambition...i could have a better paying job, but it would involve more work...WAY more work...and i just don't think im willing to put in that much time and energy to make someone else rich...cuz it sure as shit wouldnt make ME rich...it's tough being my own parent..getting mad at myself for lazing around the house and not picking up my room while at the same time being pissed when i trip over something in the dark (i think that was a metaphor...my 6th grade english teacher would be so proud) i guess im destined to be a toys r us kid forever...

rock on!
2/27/2002 01:18:51 AM | immortalize me | 21 comments