Friday, March 15, 2002

well this just figures....into my quirky luck....for the first time in literally a year (the last time i got any significant time off from work was the week around my birthday last year) i actually get time off....and not just any old couple days either....i get from the 13th to the 24th off....12 whole glorious, work free, paid days off.....and what happens?...i go and get sick...and not just any kinda sick either....REAL sick.....in fact i think i may have been exposed to strep throat...although my symptoms don't fit the medical thingie with the exception of the white bumps on my tonsils....my throat isnt really that sore....(why do i keep wanting to spell sore like soar?)...and it didn't come on all sudden like, im not really feverish, and i got one hell of a stuffed up nose/head which u aren't sposed 2 get with strep....so wtf?....but i could swear ive had the lil white spots on my tonsils before....i just know i have....so im not really worried.....but i just wish i could breathe without the assistance of the lovely mentholated nose unstuffer stuff...prolly just a bad cold, or slight touch of the flu.....but why NOW??? my bday is tomorrow (big hooray btw!! i cant wait 2 be 30....seriously im so jazzed!) and i still have time off left...id like to be able to sit on my ass while gary goes 2 work everyday and do nothing but watch tv and enjoy myself....maybe fart around on the computer playing games or surfing sites (which btw i found a really funky one while doing a search on 'diagrams of the human throat' how this has anything to do with diagrams of the human throat i have no clue, but its sorta funny and has some interesting links including that sinfest that gary likes so have a click), read a book, hell even SLEEP...but noooooo.....i hafta go and get sick...o plah

btw...the reason im so jazzed bout turnin 30 is i get to enter a new decade completely and totally happy.... with the exeption of the last 3 or 4, my 20's licked major balls....so....YaY!!!!@bein 30!!

what did u get me?
3/15/2002 01:50:28 AM | immortalize me | 21 comments

Tuesday, March 12, 2002

did u read gary's post?...bout the whole 'split second decision' thing?....well his thinkin got me thinkin.....
sure we've all done that...but...u hafta take the bad with the good....by that i mean, maybe, just maybe there's something or somethingS that have happened to us in our past that we wish wouldnt have happened. god knows i have.
but what if those things had really not happened?...assuming you are at all happy with where you are right now in your life, or at any time in it for that matter, you sorta hafta take the good with the bad in that....if this one thing didnt happen to you, maybe you wouldnt have done this other thing in response, and maybe that action knocked a whole slew of other things out of alignment (ref. Mr. Destiny and any one of the back to the future movies)
like me for instance...if i hadnt gotten arrested in the 9th grade (don't ask) then i wouldnt have gone to my father's to live...and i wouldnt therefore have run away from there to go to my mom's in michigan...where she wouldnt have had the opportunity to say "thats it, you're over 18, get your own place", so i wouldnt have been feeling particularly depressed and lonely the week after my bday living in an apt with someone i couldnt stand, and then i wouldnt have ended up in the hospital after a failed (and not altogether really real) suicide attempt, at which time i would not have gone back to live with my father, then moving out on my own a few months later, only to not move to texas to live with my mom again in 1997.

and if i hadnt gone to live with my mom in texas in 1997, i wouldnt have gotten on her computer late one nite, found vp, and subsequently i would never have met gary, and at this very moment be the happiest i have been my whole life.

crazy thing....life...
3/12/2002 03:49:10 AM | immortalize me | 21 comments